Friday, 28 November 2014

The Grateful Blogger Tag

So I believe it's Thanksgiving today or tomorrow in America.  You're all going on holiday or meeting up with family and eating turkeys and stuff, right?  Well here in Australia, we don't actually celebrate Thanksgiving.  Although, I was still tagged in this lovely little thing by India @the Tudda Pudda Diaries and I've decided to do this because being grateful and appreciative is a really good thing, and I'd like to join in with this whole Thanksgiving thing a little.  Feeling left out by stereo-typical Americans is not a nice feeling.

Here's what I have to do:
  • Thank the person who nominated me and leave a link for them
  • Write about 10 things I'm grateful for, and they actually have to be deep.  So no saying "I like videogames harhar".  I have to think about what's important, and also state why.
  • Tag 10 bloggers and comment on their blog, letting them know they've been tagged
  • Add the pic above
Now it's time to be a little grateful for once...

1) Words

Lately I've been pretty appreciative of words.  First of all, they're used for the obvious reason, to talk, to communicate in every day life.  But these powerful letters strung into words, into sentences, into paragraphs can tell so many things.  I use them to decipher thoughts one by one, making myself understand bit by bit.  I use them to share fantasies in stories, to share truths on this blog, to relate to so many other people.  Words are in books, where I can be entertained.  I guess they can inspire too sometimes, when you catch that perfect phrase that sums up everything.  I'm grateful that we have words.

2) Friends

They just make you feel like you belong, and they make life so much more interesting.  We go through things together, being the same age and going through life and school at around the same pace, seeing each other every single day.  We laugh together over so many things, and do stuff together, and are an outlet for each others' little rants.  Then, at the same time, friendships cause drama and hurt.  There are disagreements, over-analysations and so many insecurities.  When you can feel as if you belong, one action can make you feel the opposite, and it hurts.  Not being invited hurts.  Missing out hurts.  Feeling replaced hurts.  Fighting hurts.  As I said, friendships make everything more interesting.

3) Choices

We can choose to do anything, be whatever we want to be.  Isn't that just amazing?  We can choose where we stand among people, who we want to be friends with, what we want to do as a career, how we spend our free time, whether to be happy or not.  That's the thing so many people don't realise.  You can choose whatever you want, to take whatever path you want.  Everything is up to you, everything is under your control, and that's something to be grateful for.

4) Social media

They say the world is now a global community, that it is so easy to simply contact anyone through the internet, to share anything through the internet, and I actually really appreciate that.  We have our mainstream social media such as instagram or snap chat, where we can see what all our friends, family, acquaintances and celebrities are up to, and then there's platforms like this blog, where I can share whatever I want in my own little corner.  I'm able to get my message out, show everyone the little things in life that I feel like writing about, and that's so so great.  Browsing social media can inspire.  Posting can make you heard.

5) Family

It's dysfunctional, but it's unconditional love.  The amount of crap I pull with my family is so not funny, but then they do the same.  It's all good.  I still love them.  The fact that I can say that makes me feel so grateful.  Sure, I may not feel like spending time with them, and they may not really relate to me, but they still know me the best, and they'll still love me no matter what.  I have a mother who is a little psycho but still shops with me and has deep mother-daughter discussions with me.  Then there's my dad who's such a dork but teaches me so much.  And there's my sister, who barely talks to me anymore but is the most relatable and gives me someone to team up with in life, no matter the circumstances.  Love you family <3

6) Opportunities

I'm fairly privileged, going to a private school where I'm babied and everything is up for grabs if you just ask, work for it or go for it.  And then there's so many opportunities for the future.  There's so many places to apply for work experience, so many subjects to choose from in year 12.  Everything is set up for me.  All I have to do is grab it and work at it.  It's all actually a possibility, and that's something to be grateful for.  I've realised that I haven't grabbed for so many things I've wanted to do in the last two years, due to insecurities or the fact that none of my friends were doing it.  It's time to ask to do what I think sounds good, to use my opportunities to create many more.  It's unbelievable that anything is possible.

7) Free TV

Is it shallow (or illegal) that I'm putting this on my list?  I'm just really really grateful for all those episodes uploaded onto the internet.  I'm grateful for websites like Megashare, Project Free TV and Watchseries.  I'm not even kidding.  They've actually made my days so much more entertaining.  I've been able to have my own little marathons, my own little interesting lives to watch, and I'm grateful.

8) Nature

Okay, I'm not like a naturistic person or anything, but you have to admit, the world is pretty beautiful.  I mean, how did it all turn out like this, through all of evolution.  It's a miracle that these plants, animals, the sky, everything exists just by chance.  It's just by chance that we exist.  We should all be pretty damn grateful about that.

9) My nationality

The image above is supposed to be Chinese calligraphy of the word mei, which means beautiful, and is also my mum's name.  Although, I admit, I can't actually speak Chinese so that may or may not embarrassingly be the wrong character.  The point is, I'm grateful to be Asian, Chinese-Malaysian to be exact.  It sets me apart from so many people where I live, having parents who were brought up differently, having the classic black hair, brown eyes, and slightly darker skin.  I don't know if I'm just imagining it, but I feel as if Asians have connections to other Asians.  Like, when we see another Asian we immediately kind of want to talk to each other, or seem to relate to each other a little.  Or is that just me being random?  I'm not saying most of my friends are Asian, because most of them aren't, but I'm saying I'm pretty proud to be Asian and I'm grateful to have a second nationality that allows me to experience a different culture and go overseas once a year.  If only I could learn Chinese.

10) Society

We can have whatever job we want.  We can study what we want.  We have social guidelines and taxes and systems of trade and systems for everything really, and they pretty much work.  Isn't that fantastic?  So much of the world is so advanced, and getting more advanced each day.  We're humane, we believe in equality, we believe in freedom of speech.  I mean, sure society does have many issues, but think of all the perfection we've managed to achieve.  There's an infinite amount of ways humans could have turned out.  There's an infinite amount of morals we could have.  Yet we ended up like this.  We ended up with this system, with this world, and it's pretty close to a utopia if you ask me.

So as you can see there's plenty of things to be grateful for in this infinite world.  There's these 10 things that are evident, and then there's so much more. 

Here's my 10 nominees

Athina @Between My Lines
Kei @Your Daily Dose of Everything
Monique @Mo_Books
Corinne @skinnedcartree
Anna @a whole lot of chitty chat
Katie @Lillies of Grace
Kathie @A Sea Change
Amanda @Black Widow
Miriam @It's My Life
Irene @Irene Elisabeth

Happy Thanksgiving to all you Americans!

And try being grateful today anyway everyone else.


Tuesday, 25 November 2014

The Key to Confidence

Let's begin with those insecurities you seem to have.  You know, where you think those people over there are having more fun than you.  Where you ditch your conversation for another, because they look like they're talking about something more interesting.  Well the truth is, the grass is probably no greener on the other side.  The only reason they seem to be having more fun than you is because you've persuaded yourself that you're having none.  You just need to get it into your head that you are the scene.  It's your job to make sure you're having fun.  You make the conversation interesting.  You say something you think is funny.  And if you're having fun, the people will come to you.  You'll be the one they ditch their conversations for.

Just stop being insecure, okay?  Do you ever wonder why some people seem to be more respected than others?  People listen to them more.  People want to spend time with them more.  The only reason for that is because they're speaking up.  They're not afraid to say what they want.  You can't be respected if you don't say anything at all.  You can't be respected for just saying what everyone else is saying.  You need to make up the phrase.  You need to be the one everyone seems to be quoting.

Everyone is people, and people are just people.  Not one is much better than another.  The only reason you might think that is because the ones that are confident seem to be better.  The ones that aren't are secretly amazing, but don't get as much recognition, and that's okay if you're okay with that.  But please have the confidence to hold your own, to have your own known personality that is ultimately you.  We need a variety of people, and you are part of that vast variety.  I know it's cheesy but be yourself, because everyone else is taken.  If you say what you believe in or want to say, then you'll also end up surrounding yourself with people who genuinely like you, who you can make good friendships with.

Stop icing out people you don't particularly know too.  It could be that girl who's always on the bus.  Or that guy who sits near you in maths.  Or that girl who's always waiting for her parents in the same spot as you.  Just say hi to them, talk to them, even if they have some kind of reputation, whether they're "undesirable", "weird" or "really popular".  And if you like them, well start saying hi to them whenever you see them.  That's how friendships are developed.

I know it's more difficult than it sounds.  Speaking up can be hard in certain situations.  Sometimes you really want to say something just to please the other person, or make them like you better, even when you don't believe it.  And no matter how simple it sounds, saying hello can be the most difficult thing in the world.

But here's a tip...

Just stop caring.

My current lock screen on my phone says "You're at your best when you don't give a crap."  And it's true.  If you don't care what they think of you, saying whatever you want is easy, giving your honest opinion is easy, and saying hello is the simplest thing in the world. 

The key to being confident is to live for yourself.  You're the one having the best time.  You're the one who thinks this and feels like saying it.  You're the one who doesn't care what she'll think of you when you tell her you like this singer, or you think the guy she likes is ugly.  You're the one who wants to get to know her, not the other way round.  You don't care what she thinks of you.  You just want another person to talk to.

And the truth is, if you let them see who you are, if you let them judge you for speaking up rather than not saying anything at all, they will probably like you.  They certainly won't hate you.

If you decide to stop feeling judged and invite people over to your place, or have a party of your own, you'll end up having fun.  Carry your own.  You're a person, they're a person, you're just as important as all of them.  In fact, you're more important, because you're you and you most definitely care.

The key to confidence is to put yourself up on that pedestal.


Saturday, 22 November 2014

Mockingjay Part 1

It's the third instalment of one of my favourite series of all time, Mockingjay Part 1.  The bit I don't like is the "part 1".  I mean, I seriously would have been fine with watching a super long movie with everything, rather than having to wait another whole year!  I get that it's a really complicated book and a whole bunch of stuff happened, but seriously.  Some movie makers are such money hunters.

Anyway, I'm just going to assume you all know what's been happening with the whole Hunger Games thing, and I'll skip to the fact that Katniss is the Mockingjay and she's leading a rebellion from district 13, while Peeta's been captured in the Capitol and all that.

The movie was so super intense!!  There were so many hand-grabbing moments and my eyes went watery quite a few times during all that dramatic music and speeches.  I kept getting really annoyed that while Katniss was talking to Gale and they were having a few sweet moments, Peeta was still being tortured in the Capitol.  I also kept comparing the whole war thing with World War 1 which we've been learning in History.  I don't know why.  It was pretty political and there were like bombs and shootings and stuff.

So it's late now and I'm not really sure where I'm going with this post or how I'm structuring anything, but I do have so much more I wanna say, so I'm just gonna state what's on my mind now...


Team Peeta all the way!!

Liam Hemsworth is seriously so hot <3

Did anyone else only just re-realise that the game-maker rebel guy died in real life?  How the hell are they supposed to make part 2?  Last I remember he ended up being pretty important.

Sitting on the edge of the group in cinemas is both good and bad.  I mean, you don't get annoyed at people talking as much, but at the same time you talk less.  Does that make sense?

That president woman annoys me.  Especially her hair.

President Snow is kinda cool... but pure evil.  Like the snow queen in Narnia.  They should date.  Lol.

But then again, he looks like Santa.

Finnick is really hot and I really wanna see him in Love, Rosie with Lily Collins and a British accent. ;)

The girl who acts as Annie went to my school.

Some lines:
  • "Any other requirements?" "My sister gets to keep her cat"
  • "We'll make you the best looking rebel in history" -Effie
  • "And that's how you end a rebellion" -Haymitch

Did you know J-Law didn't even wear any makeup in parts of it?

Honestly, book 3 wasn't really my favourite but I understand it had to be written and I did like some parts.  I just miss the games.

Holy crap that ending!!  I feel so traumatized and Peeta... no... Poor Katniss.  I freakin hate the Capitol.  I don't care if this is fictional because I'm having very non-fictional feelings about it right now.  I need part 2.  I need to see Peeta as Peeta again.  I'm sorry.  Josh Hutcherson isn't even that hot, but Peeta is just so sweet and amazing and you'll see my heartbreak when you watch this movie.

So yeah.  Have fun watching if you haven't already, and I strongly advise you read the books because they're really good!


Thursday, 20 November 2014

Alice In Zombieland

It's a badass title for a badass series, maybe a little too badass.  Alice in Zombieland is a trilogy I started reading back in year 7, and I was probably too young, but anyway, the third book came out this year and I finally got around to reading it. 

So I got introduced to this series by a friend who's obsessed with the old tales such as Snow White, Sleeping Beauty and Alice in Wonderland.  She obviously thought this looked cool, and I did too.  The series turned out to be way too much for her, but for some reason I didn't stop reading.

Now, you'd think that it would be some kind of zombie play on Alice in Wonderland, and I think it was meant to be, but I honestly couldn't see it.  To me it was one nice little slightly sci fi trilogy about zombies and teenagers.

Basically, Alice Bell lives with her loving family, including her very paranoid father who's scared of "monsters".  What she doesn't know is that these "monsters" are real, and in one moment, they take away everyone she loves.  So Ali moves in with her grandparents and everything just happens from there.  At her school are a crew of bad boys who kill zombies by night, and if she wants to survive and avenge her family, she has to trust their leader, Cole Holland, and become a bit of a bad girl herself.  Her best friend, Kat, is awesome though.

Yeah... it all sounds really dramatic and zombie-ish.  But the story is actually pretty good, and heated, and intense, and kinda inappropriate. 

If you hadn't guessed already, Cole is the love interest and I actually don't find him attractive, although I can bypass that.  I mean, he has violet eyes and a nipple piercing.  All of that just turns me waaay off.  But you know, while reading you can kinda imagine it all doesn't exist.  He's also really good with Ali.  Especially in the second book.

I honestly can't remember what happened in Through the Zombie Glass, but I know I loved the book and couldn't stop reading.  I think it had something to do with Ali becoming a zombie and weird visions but who knows.  I know there was some kind of love triangle or drama going on with Cole and Ali, and I just really love reading about when the guy gets jealous.  Even if it's really aggressive like Cole is.

Speaking of aggressive, that's exactly how I found the third book, Queen of Zombie Hearts.  The girls were way too egotistical, and the whole relationship thing was so possessive.  I think I heard the words "she's mine" accompanied by some form of growling too much.  The story was good though, with the whole zombie war and family drama, and the betrayals and mystery.  I can't really go into detail with anything because the whole series is one big tangled web that you should untangle for yourself.

This series is also really dirty.  Not fifty shades of grey dirty but still pretty dirty.  Just.. yeah...

Well, I thought I'd share an interesting series with you.  It's pretty creative and well-written so why not? 

You know, I'm looking like a zombie now with bandages around my wrist because I may have broken it.  No wait, that's a mummy.


Sunday, 16 November 2014

The Famous People Tag

If you hadn't already realised, I love watching TV and movies, and stalking celebrities' lives also gives me a strange satisfaction.  So as soon as I saw this tag, I was completely stoked to fill it out.  Thanks Evelyn @Me, Myself and I for sorta nominating me.  I mean, you said I was nominated but I'm not on the post... Anyhow, I really want to answer these questions so thanks!!

So here's the rules...
  • Add the button and a link back to the person who nominated you
  • Answer the questions
  • Nominate the last 10 people who commented on your blog (excluding anonymous people or the person who tagged you)
And now for the questions!!

#1 Who is your favourite singer/group?

If you don't recognise her you must living under a rock.  It's Taylor Swift of course!!  Who else would it be?  She's practically the only artist I listen to and if you haven't listened to 1989 you really should.  The girl's a genius over analysing diary/poetry writer.

#2 If your favourite male actor was in the same room with you right now, what would your reaction be?

I don't have a favourite but I sure know he's hot!! 
But I'm civilised... and he's probably too old for me...
So I'd scream and get his autograph and take photos to make everyone jealousss.
Then I'd ask if he has a younger brother ;)
Like Zac Efron's...

#3 Is there a famous person you used to love but (due to something they did in their life) you've suddenly changed your mind?


I mean, she went from this


To this
Yeah.  I used to be completely obsessed with everything Disney.  And Miley was my hero because she could choose between both Jake and Jessie, and she was also secretly awesome as a popstar, and her Lily friendship was something to idolize.  So yeah, she was amazing.  And I guess her new image now is okay, but it's hard to accept it after the Hannah Montana image I've grown up with.
#4 Name a famous person you like who's name starts with V
Uhh.. Vanessa Hudgens.  That girl is so pretty and made an amazing Gabriella to that Troy <3
She's still cool now I guess, being friends with Ashley Benson and Selena Gomez and stuff.
#5 What's one of your favourite red carpet dresses?
I don't really pay attention to the dresses and stuff, but I do remember this one from when J-Law tripped at the Oscars.  Haha I love Jennifer Lawrence.
#6 Who's your favourite royal person?
Little Prince George all the way.  That lucky little instantly famous guy...
#7 Who's your favourite child actor/actress?
I'm not sure if she was young enough but I absolutely loved Chloe Grace Moretz in Kickass.  She was just so... kickass
#8 Is there an actor/actress you actually like the private lives of?
Jay Z and BeyoncĂ© are one powerful couple.  They look pretty good to me.
#9 Do you think actors and actresses have improved these past 100 years?
Yeah I do because TVs were invented and people actually act in huge movies and stuff.  So yeah, acting's more of a career and is majorly publicized now, which motivates people
#10 What's the weirdest famous person name?
Back to Miley Cyrus... Her real name was Destiny Hope.  It's somewhat inspiring, but it's mostly just weird to me.
#11 Do you think you look like a famous person?  Which one?
I'm Asian so there's not really anyone to choose from.  In primary school people said I look like Cho Chang.
#12 Share your favourite famous person quote
Well the person that nominated me used this quote, and I absolutely loved it so I'm gonna use it too.
And for some wise words, go read the foreword of Taylor Swift's album, 1989, which I mentioned before.
#13 Who's your favourite dancer?
I will never get over Christian from Dance Academy
But Abigail was my favourite dancer, especially that solo to The Last Day on Earth
#Why is you're favourite actress you're favourite one?  When did you decide she was your favourite?
She's funny, witty, and totally relatable whilst also being majorly famous.  She loves food and isn't too skinny but still looks amazing.  She's in X Men, The Hunger Games and Silver Linings Playbook.  What's not to love about Jennifer Lawrence. 
I think she became my favourite when I saw her in The Hunger Games because I was totally in love with the book, and Katniss was my idol.
#15 Have you ever met/seen/been close to a famous person?
Well I went to LA and Rodeo Drive when I was 10, so I must've been near some kind of famous person... but honestly, sadly no.
And the last 10 commenters who I'm tagging...
Anja @anja ge
Why do tags always take forever to make?  I'll let the nominees know they've been nominated tomorrow or the day after, depending.  I need to go to sleep... -.-

Thursday, 13 November 2014

Rites of Passage

The first kiss.

A cute date.

Sneaking out at night.

A wild party.


We all know how it's supposed to go.  High school (and middle school in America) is meant to be filled with drama, social anxiety, and so many firsts.  Some people say it's the best years of their life, and that's exactly what I was expecting for my future, leaving my primary school and starting year 7 at high school for the first time. 

But is school really meant to go like that?  Maybe in movies.  Maybe even in America.  But here?  I'm living in a world opposite from all the stereo-typical "rites of passage" and I can't help but feel as if I'm missing out on a bunch of stuff.  Going to an all girls private school on an island on the other side of the world really is far fetched from the high school experience so many girls dream about.

And I can't be the only one.  In fact, I think that a lot of girls my age aren't going through these rites of passage either, and I bet a whole load of them are wondering what they're missing out on and when things will start happening too.

Sure, there are always some who seem to be living that stereo-typical experience, but are they just being try-hards?  When you start paying attention to some of the drama going on, you realise that they're not even coming close.  Their relationships are far from real (or maybe that's just in a girls school), their parties are super crappy, as if they're only having one to reassure themselves that they do party, and the majority of drama talked about is people getting nosy into other people's friendship groups, or stuff about guys that don't come close to real relationships.  People at my school can have a boyfriend and hardly talk to them, or won't even blink an eye if their ex dates their best friend.  And yet my year is considered "one of the worst" somehow.

Real drama and stereo-types actually do happen in public co-ed schools, according to old friends and social media anyway, but it's still not like the movies.  Nothing is.  It's funny how we sometimes let movies like Mean Girls, Gossip Girl and my new TV show Awkward effect our views on how high school should be.  Or maybe that's just me.  I guess if I want more stereo-typical high school drama, I should just continue watching fake movies.

But as for these rites of passage, they will come in their own time.  The first kiss will happen one day.  Prom, or year 12 formal, will happen.  One day I really will go on a cute date.  Whether it's during high school, or I wait until uni, it will happen eventually.  I reckon rites of passage are different for all of us, and we should wait until they happen rather than comparing against when they happen for others.  This could be said for my whole school demographic, of which less than a third of my grade has been kissed, or for my individual self.

And if I really wanted my rites of passage to come sooner, all I'd have to do is try harder.  It's easy to experience something.  All you have to do is go for it.  It's just a matter of whether you really need to or want to.  Or whether you don't want to be tacky, and want to wait for it all to come on it's own.  You are who you want to be.

I follow Shay Mitchell from Pretty Little Liars on instagram, and this is relevant because she recently posted two relatable quotes I'd like to share with you...


So don't feel like you're missing out on anything.  All the rites of passage will come in due time.  There is no status quo.  It's your environment, your choices, and basically you that determines when, and it doesn't really matter anyway. 

Judging from my situation, I'm not going to be one of those people leaving high school saying I hated it.  But I certainly hope high school won't be the highlight of my life either.  There are so many rites of passage to go through in life, and I am excited to experience them all in due time.