Saturday 16 May 2015

Feeling Inspired

I'm not sure if inspired is the right word here.  I just want to create.


I've been thinking about writing a book - not a make-believe dream situation teen book, but something a little more sophisticated.  I want to create an accurate depiction of life, of the different types of people I've met in mine, and what I know about social interaction.  I want to create something a little more real.

I've always been a diary keeper, someone who likes recording memories in every shape and form.  I have endless piles of notebooks filled with life artefacts both significant and useless.  I'm currently keeping two types of diaries - one filled with questions and one filled with rambles - but I want to start another one, some time.  I want one of those plain books filled with exactly 365 plain pages.  I want to choose one photo a day, from any part of my daily life, anything partially significant, and have one photo from each day for an entire year straight.  Wouldn't that be an ultimate memory bank?  A picture is worth a thousand words, is it not?


I haven't drawn lately.  Looking through my sketch book, there's an awful lot of lead pencil and only a little half hearted colouring.  The aesthetics are all wrong.  I want something less clean cut, less fangirl.  I want to create something more arty and abstract, but real all at the same time.  I've liked contours lately.  And eyes.  Eyes are my favourite part of the human body.  I want to draw more eyes - to capture the light or turn them into jagged thick black lines, like mascara gone wrong.

I haven't read much lately either.  At the moment I'm rereading a fantasy book from back in the day.  I only chose it because the main character has the same name as me, to be honest.  I don't understand how I could find the book 'cute' or 'capturing', but instead I now admire the world the author has painted.  Looking at it, I want to create my own little world.



I've really liked hyphens lately.  My friend uses them in her texts, a history teacher in her emails, my English teacher in her English.  I never thought of alternate uses of punctuation.  I never realised that you can literally write however you want in whichever order you want, as long as you punctuate everything thoughtfully.


Looking around my room now, I see a mess - crooked canvases, scattered uniforms, falling sticky notes, scrambled skin products, and a string of polaroids from last summer.  On my door hangs an excruciating 2D drawing from when I was nine, and a variety of quotes from when I was twelve and attempting to be tumblr.  This room needs remaking.


Sitting on my bed amongst the soft zebra-print sheets, facing my reflective glasses, unequally parted straight hair and oversized tourist shirt in the mirror, makes me feel like writing for some reason.  My ugly black monster of a laptop is unbalanced on top of the sheets, taking a break from the countless episodes I've been streaming. 

I'm getting a new laptop soon, a MacBook Air.  I've wanted one for a long time now.  It'll sure be prettier than what I'm looking at now.  Maybe it'll motivate me to write more, because I like the idea of sitting in bed, writing something deep with a pretty laptop, even if it's all just a mess of words with no meaning.

It's too bad school is both hard and important, and Netflix is ruining my life.  I simply have no time to create.

Love,
M

40 comments:

  1. If you ever decide to write, I would be one of the first in line to buy your book.
    I read this whole post, and I think your inspiration is rather inspiring. <3

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    1. Aw thanks Jordy. Inspiring inspirations - I like that.

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  2. Not if you don't take the time. I'm thinking of writing something too, if I find the inspiration I need.

    / Avy
    http://MyMotherFuckedMickJagger.blogspot.com



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    1. I certainly hope you do, Avy, because you're a magnificent writer and I'd love to read a book of your words and your story. I feel like inspiration comes through experiences, and you seem to have had a lot of those. You should be the one taking the time to write, and maybe I should too.

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  3. I'm getting a new laptop soon too & I can't wait. My current one is 8 years old & extremely slow. It's hard to get work done & thus, very UNinspiring. :]

    // ▲ itsCarmen.com ▲

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    1. Slow laptops are most definitely uninspiring. Good thing we're both getting new laptops ;)

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  4. I think you should get started right at the moment you feel you should.
    I think its the moment, I try to seize it everytime from flying away.

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    1. It's true that sometimes we get all this motivation and inspiration, and then we wait too long and we just can't be bothered anymore. But sometimes life throws us more important things to channel our energy into.

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  5. loved this post, I have thoughts and ideas like these too, but then I end up just doing nothing :)

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    1. True true. But what do you say we do something?

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  6. tell me if you start to write a book hahaha because it's gonna be so cool

    vnssachn.blogspot.com

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    1. Aw thank you. I'll be sure to post it on my blog if it's any good ;)

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    1. Writing is definitely therapeutic, but starting a writing project will take time I don't have at the moment. Thanks Katie xx

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  8. Wow. I felt inspired reading that. You're wonderful and you should start writing whenever you feel like it. I'll be sure to read because this was lovely! xx

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    1. Writing a perfect piece sounds like it takes so much time and effort and I don't have any of that at the moment. Thanks Saee. Stay wonderful.

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  9. It's so nice to hear that other people have writerly, nostalgic, inspired days like this as well. Take advantage of them, girl! Don't ignore it; make today so awesome that yesterday gets jealous :)

    Chloe | Curious Ramblings

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    1. Haha I like that: Make today so awesome that yesterday gets jealous :') I'm sure all people get those days where they just get a burst of ideas ready to be put into action. It's a pity we're all so busy.

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  10. Good luck with writing, remember it takes a long time to write a good novel, so don't rush it ;)

    Meme xx

    New post:
    'The Book Mouse Suggests: The Raven Boys'
    http://thedayinthelifeofmexoxo.blogspot.co.uk/

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    1. Thanks Meme. That's exactly my thoughts, so if I decide to write, I'll make sure I take the time and have it in the first place x

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  11. This itself is such an inspiring and beautiful post:) Lovely pictures too x
    Omg and you're getting a macbook! Lucky you!

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    1. Thanks June!! YES I AM AND I'M SO EXCITED TO BE RID OF THIS MONSTER OF A LAPTOP!! Literally, even typing on this thing can be a bit of a pain...

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  12. Write that book, don't second guess yourself! Writing a little bit every few days will end up being a lot after a while.

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    1. But I feel like the book needs a plan and the right state of mind, and a little each day won't give me that. I do want to write though.

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  13. Great photos !
    xoxo,

    atwednesdaysiwearpink.blogspot.pt

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  14. I enjoyed reading this! I've also been thinking about writing a book. If you ever do, I'll really want to read it :)

    http://iamnotskeen.blogspot.com

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    1. Awh thanks Creesian. You should definitely write a book - I'd want to read yours too x

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  15. I love being inspired I tried to write, but I dont have the power to do it, love making pictures,photos or videos though !
    dreammorebabe

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    1. I'm sure you have the power to write!! It's just words after all - just a matter of finding the right ones. Pictures, photos and videos are lovely pieces of moments in time though, just as words are.

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  16. Being inspired really gets my mind going and gives me a new view on the things around me. I loved these photos :)

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    1. Thanks Noor x Being inspired really is an enlightening feeling

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  17. I love the way you write! I would love to be able to buy a book written by you. I like how you included the pictures: they're kind of irrelevant, but at the same time they serve as wonderful transitions between your thoughts.

    thatcrazygiraffe.blogspot.co.uk xx

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    1. Haha irrelevant pictures in posts are my forte. I'm glad you like them though. Thanks so much!!

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  18. I think it's great that you are feeling so inspired. Likewise, I am a diary keeper and currently am doing my 365 day photo challenge. I think I'm on day 56. :) I hope you do it, because it sounds just like the kind of thing you need. As for trying to write a deeper meaning novel, I like the idea. Can I suggest you try We All Looked Up by Tommy Wallach? I think that is perfectly suited to you right now ^^

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    1. You're actually doing the photo thing!? That's seriously so cool! Imagine looking back at this. I really want to start, maybe next year though. And I've heard that book, We All Looked Up, but I wasn't sure if it was good. Thanks so much for confirming it is though, because it does sound perfect so I will be searching that up. x

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  19. I just discovered your blog, and I really quite like it, your writing is really interesting and I have a lot of the same feelings you do. Keep writing!

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    1. Thank you so much! I'm glad you like it. I love it when people can relate x

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